I just wanted to add something..."normal" drinkers usually don't have to obsess over just having two drinks.
A friend of mine went on a vacation with her family where meals/alcohol were all inclusive. (She's in the program and does not drink.) Her sister had one drink in the 5 total days they were there. She could just not fathom that. It was all payed for, yet her sister chose to have one stinkin' drink the entire time. So why did my friend obsess over the alcohol that was not being drunk while her sister thought nothing of it? My friend is an alcoholic.
Good luck and best wishes to you.