WOW....your story could easily be mine...easily!! Started at 13 and drank hard core for the next 23 years..I drank all throughout college, maintained my grades and job, but just barely. Imagine if I had not been drinking I would have flown through. I always thought that no one knew but of course my family/friends had their suspicions...the only thing I can offer you is to please stop now...please see a doctor about withdrawal..I am envious that you are so young and could possibly have such an amazing life ahead of you. Please grab onto it for dear life...you are so worth it and you deserve the life that you were meant to have. I know the liquor seems so alluring right now, I know that your young but I KNEW at 18 that I was an alcoholic...what I would give to go back and stop then...I really hope you can get in to see your doctor and I wish you SOOO much success!! Please keep us posted....
~Rebecca