FI -
I can only offer my experience. There are days when the first step swirls round my head all day and I can't wait for sleep. Thankfully less so the last few months.
I know what you mean about the letting go thing... rather than dive head first into a first step all over again... when those mental twists come round... it's easier to just let it go... I 'm not drinking today and I'm not missing anything... big deal.
Thanx for sharing that.
Mark