What I'm feeling right now:
Problem? What problem?
I’m not THAT bad!
All I want is a little relief!
I can stop any time I want to!
Now is not a good time to stop!
I’ll handle it myself!
I can also add:
It's not fair. I'm angry and full of resentment right now. And sad. I wish I could drink like everyone else.
Oh well. I'm here and trying and I know it's in my best interests.
Errrrggh.