Hi mate,
You clearly have some kind of alcohol problem but the anxiety is the real fear for you I presume?
I had the same thing, told the doctor how much I was using and he looked me straight in the eye without missing a beat and said my anxiety is alcohol related.
I wen't on to get some fearsome panic attacs, decided it wasn't for me and I need to stop. Still a learning curve for me but it is no longer a question of if I have a problem with alcohol so atleast I have a start point and no confusion or 'ifs' running around.