Sometimes the committee in our heads can be a bit unnerving. You have to fire them or they'll keep arguing until you go nuts. The only one you can't fire is the alcoholic, and she needs to be locked in a closet.
And speaking of firing, fire your sponsor. A sponsor that is never available isn't doing you any good. Get a new one and make sure that she'll be available. It's the sponsor's job to help the sponsee, and you're not getting the help you need.