Welcome Heaja13
It must be hard with a still drinking partner. My only advice is - your bf has to run his own race and you must run yours.
It would be nice to get support at home but, forwhatever reason, that doesn't always happen. Thats why we're here.
It's not easy to quit under any circumstances, but it's *never* impossible.
Focus on *your* recovery - don't drink. Some face to face support like AA will also help, but we're here whenever you need us
good luck on your journey
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