igottobesober

I have been posting here for around a month. I have tried to quit drinking and failed several times. Tonight I am saying goodbye to alcohol. I will not see you tomorrow, to start with. I am ending our long relationship one day at a time. You have been in my life for 25 years. Our relationship has got me nowhere. I am the only one that can end the relationship. I know I am going to miss you at first, but hope those feelings will fade as the days go by. I am sure I will think about you, but I know that our relationship is toxic. I dont want you in my childrens life anymore, and I want to show them by example that you dont need you to be in a life to have fun, escape problems or deal with stress. I will do whatever it takes to keep you out of my life.

Thanks to all of you here at SR, I am going to try to continue to post and read all I can to stay sober. I called about out patient treatment last week. I didnt make an appointment, but its a start.