Does anybody on this forum actually care enough about gneiss to tell her the truth? We can love you right to death, that's for sure. I've seen it happen more than once.
Gneiss, I absolutely do not have any kind of spiritual consent with you. You'll just have to forgive me. Or not. It doesn't matter. You're getting pats on the back for resisting temptation, when you should be getting a 2x4 across the face. You're in active relapse, and I'd bet your DOC is around the corner.
Are you unlike the dozens of other meth addicts I know who have gone full blown with exactly this kind of start? What makes you different?