So sorry for your loss...usually death is an excuse to give in and be excused for it....but in this case--it was a reason not to give in!
I lost my dad pretty unexpectedly in 12/07---this lead me into a pretty deep hole at first, but at the same time it kept me sober for 9 months---I felt like I was way too selfish to let myself indulge and take the easy way through...so I tried to be strong and tough it out....I never addressed my saddness, and tried just not to think about death at all...I couldn't handle it----this ultimately lead to another downfall....
I hope you are ok--hang in there---death is natural, it's hard to accept...but now I realize I need to make the most of my short time I have, and not waste anymore of it being unhappy with myself and the life I am living---thinking of you
