Missfixit, I'm interested in what you said about "family disapproves of me". Are you talking about your family or your Ex's? And if it is yours, why do you think they disapprove of you? (it doesn't have to be true or rational) And are you 100% sure this is true?
I cannot be around people who disapprove of me -- I KNOW I'm a good person, and I'm not interested in subjecting myself to anyone's small-minded judgment any more. I could not thrive in an environment like that, constantly battling, which is why I live far away from my family of origin. And why I've constructed my own "family of preference" where I live. That helps my self-worth a lot.........getting out of the poison.