I am so glad to hear you are around Soosieq. I have REALLY missed you. I do wish your circumstances were better though. You can get better Soos. Lots of helpful info given to you here already. I understand the point we get to when we want to be taken care of. Look to your HP to gently care for you. I would love to hear more from you at a time your ready Soos. You can pm any time at all. Thank you for responding and don't ever, ever be afraid to post. We all have this in common and we want to help you. Hugs - Sarah