(((hurting))) Yep...I do remember that fall. Even though I know better, I do tend to get my expectations up when my kid enters treatment or jail and gets a little clean time under her belt.
And, the problem with expectations is that, when unfulfilled, they turn into resentments. And that resentful anger is based in my fear.
I try to hit a bunch of meetings when this happens. That way, I can be reminded that the plan is IN PLACE. It is not my plan, but that of a higher power. And my kid CAN and WILL find exactly what she needs, when she needs it.
And each time of sobriety is a time of growth and learning, as is each relapse. It all comes together, nothing is a waste.
((((Hugs))))