You can do this, Yankees. Add over 20 more years to your drinking/drugging time and you have me...yet I've done it - coming up on 18 mos. sober. I only did alcohol, but that was enough. During my last binge I knew I was going to die if I didn't stop - and finally I pulled myself up out of hell. There are no more good times to be found at the bottom of a bottle for me. Oh, how hard it was to finally admit it. It can only get better from here, Y - you never have to do this to yourself ever again.