Thanks for the replies!! I guess I'm just going to sit here and go through the feelings and emotions and hopefully they will pass soon. I think going the complete no contact is the way to go. I don't want him to know I know where he is staying so when I get the D paper s ready he hopefully won't be hard to find. He will try to dodge me on those. I know that's what addicts do so I don't know why I have let it affect me like this. I quit expecting anything from him a long time ago but that's why I got my feelings hurt, because I expected him to have feelings like a normal person and he does not so I really did it to myself. I want his heart to hurt like mine does!!