Yes, but that is what's different this time. The other times I just thought that I "should" quit, but I didn't have any real motivation. I do this time though. Like I said, I've had some scary physical symptoms lately, and thats what woke me up.
I went to the doctor this morning actually and he confirmed that my health problems were all because of alcohol. He was going to look into some "outpatient program" (or whatever it's called), so I guess that's my plan for now. He allso suggested antabus, but the last time I took it it made me feel awful so I don't know...
But I am really motivated this time. Still feeling pretty bad from detoxing though....
Thanks for all the replies and nice words!