Hi, first time posting in this thread for me. June 27th was my first full day without alcohol after my last awful binge. My drinking has become worse then I had ever imagined was ever possible. I have been at it a long time and these days when I pick up a drink it completely takes over my life. Only bad things happen when I drink alcohol anymore and yet I still do, which has me feeling like I really am crazy. I'm still feeling ashamed and horrified at my actions during my last drinking binge and it only lasted a couple of weeks. I started to get a cough when I was going through detox and now I am 5 days sober with a really bad cold and yet I still craved a drink this morning. I am home now and in bed for the day trying to get over this cold.
I guess I'm the baby of this class? I hope to get to know everyone in the class of June because I really need support right now. I'm so depressed at the way I acted it just doesn't seem to be going away. I wish I would have blacked out the whole time but for some reason this time I do remember what I was like. Not something to be proud of.
That is where I'm at today.