I just picked up my grandmas bible and really read the scriptures she underlined. I found comfort in doing that. Years ago when I was young I was arrested for DUI, I spent 7 days in jail. She sent me letters everyday, with encouraging words, telling me she had faith that I would overcome my problem and that no matter what Jesus loved me and would help me through it. Well It took 20 yrs for those words to finally sink in, God rest her soul, she was right.