Elpis

I'm anxious for this week to be over. Tomorrow will be two years since my XABF's dad died of cancer. This coming Sunday my ex and I would have celebrated 6 years together. I thought he was going to propose during Christmas and instead he met some one else and broke up with me. At the time I didn't know about the new girl and thought our separation was for the best since his drinking had gotten to be too hard to handle. He continued calling, texting, and emailing me alternating between telling me what pills the new girl took and how she was scary and evil and asking if he got sober would I give him another chance. I finally had enough and changed my number and email. We had lived together and when I moved out I did not tell him where my new place was. After I changed my number I gave in twice and called him with my number blocked. I have gone 81 days with no contact! I don't want to give in this week so am just looking for some extra encouragement. I am spending the holiday weekend with my family who lives 2 and a half hours away. I even scheduled to take Monday off work so I could stay with my family an extra night and wouldn't have to spend Sunday night alone. The sadness does get better, but around these memory-filled times I miss the man I feel in love with six years ago.