Thanks and welcome Josh. I used to take benzos (anti-anxiety) with booze, then again after I got sober. Got hooked on the pills but didn't drink. Got off them cold-turkey, nearly went mad with the withdrawal, and went to rehab. Coming up on 3 years clean and sober this go 'round. I feel a lot better - usually, that is, but I am going through withdrawal from an antidepressant right now. I'm just over the worst of it now, I think.
Anyway - that's my long-winded way of saying 'been there - and I understand'.
Stick around, and share more when you're ready.