Thanks you guys.....
I'm good.... what I mean by "success story" is him and I doing recovery together. Fulfilling the potential and being who I thought we were!
It is such a trip to me to re-read this ESH and it's so clear how SO NOT ready I was ready to hear it.
All the ESH is right on.
And this thread just shows how enmeshed I was in his addiction. In fact, I'm sure there are many threads like that.
The thing is that if I had known better and had let him go - back then - he would be that much closer to doing what he needed /needs to do. I couldn't save him - all I could/can do is save myself.
Addiction is evil... it had me doing things that I can't even imagine I was doing. ALL while maintaining being a mother. Protecting the boys from the insanity as much as possible. All the energy and chaos... the juggling of knowing right from wrong, but not actually doing anything about it.
the original link to the blue october song was removed ... here is an updated one:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9nS_HpmHdc