Wow, I am overwhelmed with everyone's support. I can't thank you enough.
That is sooooo helpful to look at the "bottom" in that way. I have hit it, that's for sure, even though nothing *really* bad has happened in my life, and very few people even know I have a drinking problem (I told a couple of really close friends). I will stick around on SR. I would be foolish not to with so many great people.
I noticed that even when I drank in moderation this past week, there was something a little wrong about it.... I wanted more, but stopped because I was with others. It wasn't that I was in total control of my drinking, but I was pretending I was. So that's the honest truth.
I am staring a journal today, have an alcohol counseling appointment lined up, may even call a woman I met at an AA meeting who gave me her phone number, and will be reading threads on here.
Thank you so much, everyone, for your concern and interest in me.
Laura