I forgot to say I am sorry this man is looking for answers elsewhere... having lived most of the last 10 years among men due to my career, I just envy them so much... life seems so much easier for them.
I wonder also about the AH and other boyfriends in my life, for sure I have looked for emotionally unavailable ppl..so I need to own that part of me.
I am also sorry about your son, but I know he is watching you from above, and one day we will meet up there with all the meaningful ones that left earlier... ah, if only words could heal the wounds.