LaTeeDa, Yes I can do that....... I know it seems like my whole focus is on this guy and what he is saying & doing and I know I should focus on myself ....its hard when things like this happen and I hear him saying words but the words don't seem real ....and the actions are there but they seem forced.....its just frustrating living on a tightrope... trying not to fall or be pushed off...... trying to be a good person, trying to be supportive while being pushed away (he says he is not trying to push me away but seems like he is) ......ok I am going now to spend an hour not thinking or analyzing anything else about my ABF...........Thank you for the challenge......I'll be back