Originally Posted by
jamdls 
Hi Waterman! welcome to SR. My confidence seemed to go down the drain with the alcohol leaving my body as well. Now, nearly 2 years later I realize that I was just scared of life w/o my wine. The first year involves lots of soul searching and sometime in that first year I woke up 1 day and I had more confidence in myself than I'd ever imagined, if I could quit the booze I could and can do anything! It's wonderful that you have rediscovered God, I for one could not have done any of this w/o my faith and the encouragement I get from reading the bible. I agree with the others that you should try and get your wife to go to al-anon but if not well you should be doing this for YOU so take care of you.
I went to my first meeting tonight, and liked it. Wife didn't even ask me about it when I got home. She's gotten "cold", and says she doesn't want to hear about how I feel, so she doesn't ask, and I don't tell. You're right about one thing.....I'm in it for me(alone). Lord knows, I've been there for my wife through thick and thin, and she encouraged me to quit drinking. I did, but now I feel as though she's turned her back on me..."kinda"...may just be my imagination, but I don't think so. But...God is "patting me on the back", and that's good enough for me.....Thanks.....
