Congratulations and one week is a long time for an alcoholic not to drink, but you only have one week. It sounds like you want to jump through time and have all the perks of being sober for years right away. It doesn't work that way. Cravings and your disease playing games with your head is really normal for where you are at. You have to accept where you are at now, that on this day you are in the best place you can be and that you can't wish yourself to a better place. You can't work the 12 steps in a week and if you do you are doing something wrong, in my opinion. In terms of forgiveness, I would advise you to not worry about that yet, give it time and revist the issue when you get to that stage of your program. That said, your attitude is awesome and you seem genuinely enthusiastic about your sobriety and that will serve you well down the road. Think about the difference between relief and recovery. Like most alcoholics, you seem to be drawn to the immidiate relief of being dry for a little while. Relief doesn't keep you sober for long though. Recovery, more difficult and more long-term, is necessary. Sounds like you are on the right track just don't get ahead of yourself.