I'm really hurting today - no real particular reason - just really really hurting
I still am struggling with walking/exercising and struggling with not being able to walk more than 4-5 minutes - I'm trying to do my laps eveyday and I think it might be helping a little bit but I want to be better NOW! I am having a very hard time being patient ----
I think it's worse today because RAH had a 3 day weekend and we got to hang out most of the time and now I'm stuck all alone, counting hours til he comes home - how codie - how depressing ---
I called the Crisis Line and got accidently disconnected -couldn't get reconnected cuz it was busy -- wonderful
I did my stupid laps and got really short of breath - probably anxiety but scary anyway
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I hate this to the point where I'm tihnking bad bad things
