Hi TSH,
It's great to see you back in the fold, the family here at SR. I know exactly how our minds can con us into the next drink all too well. It hurts when it happens, but sometimes can be the very catalyst we need to get real with ourselves, accept our condition, then pick up the tools that work and use them to save our lives.
Your absence leaves a mighty big hole here, so I hope you stick around for good. Welcome back.