Hi Tan..
It took so much for me too...liver disease, auto crashes, rehabs, ad infinitum..you know.
Stoney..all you can do is try. Promises are empty...futile, and defeating.
The Big Book itself talks about swearing oaths...they never work.
Keep coming back..trying. Don't leave before the miracle. All of these slogans I love
because they did finally come true for me. Keep trying..