Welcome Blue... good for you that you know you need seek help. Coming to SR, going to Al-anon... all great moves in my opinion. Addiction is sad. Especially when the personw ith the addiction in our lives is our spouse or child. We love this person soooo much that we want to do anything in our power to make him/her better.... doesn't work. All you can do is protect your kids and take care of you. She has to do the rest. You can and do support and love... but you can't fix it.
Keep coming here. Accept the love and support that is found at Al-anon and keep moving forward.