Welcome to SR-I'm glad you've found us. There's a lot of people with wisdom and experience, we all share what we can and help each other through.
I'm really sorry you're going through this. I can't imagine what its like to be in your position but I'm proud of you for realizing that you can't take it anymore.
Its important to put the health and safety of your children-and yourself-first.
And Al-Anon is a great first step!
You haven't rambled at all-and even if you did, its OK. You're welcome to do so here.
My name is Holly and I'm here for you. We all are.
Keep us updated on everything.