What if you are crippled and you grew up with cripples, how would you know you are crippled till you see someone who isn't?
That sounds like that Plato thing - the cave dealie. What was that called?
looking back on a wasted life and wondering just how the hell to do this.
Just a hint - what's behind, or if we've got to keep turning around to see it - isn't 'here'.
But, you sponsor probably says that, too, huh?
I don't want a drink today, today is day six this time around, but I sure am tired of my thoughts spinning out of control.
Day six ... well, you're almost a week in, then!
SOME of that rushing feeling is your body throwin off toxins,
and I don't remember sleeping for MONTHS when I detoxed.
While 'stinkin thinkin' has it's attribute somewhat in the brain chemistry,
a good bit of it is just ...
habitual self - destruction.
You're doing the right thing, hon.
Keep talking to your sponsor
keep going to meetings
and let your body heal.
Sometimes, just knowing that it takes longer than a fortnight
to get all the alcohool residuals out of your system
is enough for us to
relax when those feelings/thoughts come on.
"Oh, here's another bit of acetone from the ol liver'
or something like that
it really helped me to know that
when I felt like I was gonna jump outa my skin
and run screaming out of the meeting and into traffic.
Just to make it stop.
Same goes for the classic
'why are you bothering to quit at all
you've already ruined your life'
that's the chemicals, too, more often than not.
That's why the Program is so effective in that
it gives you a list of people to call to get
a real voice on the phone
to help you
a voice who's been exactly where you are now.
GOOD FOR YOU
for keeping on with it.
It's not all going to be
tense as a board
resisting a drink.
It really isn't going to be that.
That goes away.
hope something in there helps!