Hi Firestorm,
I know that early sobriety is very hard. And, lots of try numerous times before we get it. All I can do is tell you what worked for me. I got to a point where I felt I was going to be lost forever and I decided that drinking was no longer an option, no matter how bad I felt. By doing that, I had find other ways to get through the day. I started walking, a lot, and it helped on every level. I began volunteering with women who lived on the street. I thought I could offer something to them, and it turned out that I was given love and hope. Get outside yourself and do something for someone else. It can help.