thanks for sharing your story, everyone i think benefits from hearing others words on the struggle. but most important is how it is helping you. unloading all these burdons on our minds is clearing out the old and allowing new thoughts and desires to grow and help us move foward to a life we really want to be living. just worry about today. don't focus on what happened yesterday, it will not accomplish anything for you right now. you can have plenty of time for that another day once you are more stable. stay strong and please keep reading and posting. it really will help you!!