Hi Ripley, I'm not a big fan of antibuse. But since we're not to talk meds here I won't say anymore. I'd suggest you seriously try AA for a while. You said that you're tried it before, but this time stick around. Let them know you're new to the program and need help. They'll be all over you with phone numbers, names and lots of support. And go to several different meetings so you get different perspectives on things. And good luck to you.