things are getting better...i think
well, i thought I would do an update!
I think I finally figured out how much ativan to take to make me feel 'normal' without feeling to out of it. If I take a quarter of a pill twice a day it seems ok!
Yesterday I met with a fellow from addiciton services. He went over the symptoms and how to manage the symptoms of Post Acute withdrawl. He wants to see me again next week and start trying to figure out what has been triggering me, ways to deal with stress that don't involve a drink or a pill! And we watched a video that a priest made who was in recovery about the first step of AA. That made me about emotional.
I had a great chat the other night with a friend in town who is also in recovery, that helped alot!
Friday I go to my doctor. I don't want to be on the ativan, so hopefully she can recommend something that isn't as addictive. Or otherwise I am just back to dealing with life with a pill!!
I would say that the thoughts of drinking are still there.....just not having any physical symptoms, but isn't that just the ativan helping with that?