Originally Posted by Zencat

Personally I know it a mess to love someone that was just not available to me emotionally. I once wanted to be loved by a girl that was more interested in putting conditions abound our relationship than striving for compassion and understanding. But what did I have to offer? A tangled life, one of searching for calm amidst my own storm. I see now what I couldn't see then. She wanted stability...I had none of that to offer. The conditions were ones I could not meet at the time and for her time was more necessary than I could realize. I had to prove myself and she had a life to live. I chalk it up to the timing was wrong. Now I see I had to first demonstrate that I could love and have compassion for myself. And that has taken a long long time to do.