Thank you all & you are soooo right.
It has helped put it into prespective.
What he is going through, he caused. I tried every way to help and got lied to more for my effort. I pleaded & cried, nothing worked.
I have a home & food for my kids because I go to work and bust my a@@ for it. I don't drink or drug. I love my kids more than myself.
I did feel massive releif when he left and I think your right winnie, thats why I felt guilty because I felt so much more peaceful and serene without the active addiction in my face at every moment.
Yes I miss him & still love the man but I don't love the addict. The addict has no place in my house anymore. The man does if he ever gets rid of the addict which I don't see happening.
He's not going to AA, not going to rehab. He tells our son he is trying to get better but I know he's not because his actions tell me this.
As he once told me, everything happens for a reason & things are just how God plans it to be.
What it is, is what it is.
Teggie