I was feeling really guilty a few weeks ago because i was recommending that my son go to a facility - felt like i abandoned him - actually said about myself "what kind of mom does this." A friend of mine said the reason i felt guilty was not because i was doing somethign wrong to AS but because i felt relief that he was not coming home. I realized the truth in that - i felt guilty because i was doing the best thing for myself and DD instead of soley focusing on what he wanted. I did the right thing but felt guilty that i felt relief that i may not have to deal with his problems. In the end it is okay for me to make decisions on what's best for the family and not just what he wants - him having some discomfort can be the best thing for him and me having peace in my home and serentity is essential to mine and my DD's lives.