I guess I thought he was doing well and giving him the opportunity to keep his job by providing the car made sense. I couldn't see how that would hurt. I am going to keep trying to focus on myself and I thank those that have continued to encourage me. I really am trying. By not contacting him sometimes I see that as him perceiving I am not interested and that puts guilt on me pretty heavily. I know I have a long way to go but I will continue to try.
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