Being honest about wanting to drink is nothing to be ashamed of Steam, I get through some days by sheer will power (and sometimes I fail
) but I don't see any value in pretending that I am always happy to be sober.
I envy those whose desire for sobriety is so all consuming that they are grateful to be sober every day, don't get me wrong sobriety is wonderful most of the time and I will continue to strive for it every day, but I don't always want it
What I am trying to work on at the moment is coming to terms with the fact that I don't always have to have what I want, but that desire is sometimes pretty overwhelming.
My hope is that the longer I abstain the more the cycle is broken.