Welcome to the family Jason - so good to have you here. SR has brought me this far, but I am considering trying a meeting for the extra support. I don't entirely trust myself. I had 3 yrs. once but convinced myself I'd never go back to hell, I'd be careful. I went back to hell, alright - this time with disastrous consequences. Once I take the first drink, all the promises I've made to myself are out the window. It only took me 25 yrs. to come to that realization. I am finally convinced - if I pick up again, I die.