I feel like crying......
I cant go more than 2 days. And even if I have just one drink a day, its only a matter time before one turns into like 15 and I get trashed and act like an a$$hole, Im hurting my husband and my self. I want to do right by him, I want it with all my heart but when I start drinking I turn into a totally different person. Mean Nasty and disrespectful. I cant do this anymore, I dont know how to fix this. I want to go to rehab but I am the sole income for my family right now. I have a good paying job and I cant give it up. I need help and I dont know what to do. Im only 26, if iI keep this up, I will be very short lived. I love my kids and my husband dearly, I just feel like breaking down and giving up.