9Iron

Wow, I had a stressful day. I've got an incredibly complex and messed up job situation where one of the companies that I work for is being sold, and one of the owners has succeeded in hijacking all of the company information and is holding it hostage for payments into his legal defense fund (don't ask). Although last time I spoke to him he was basically trying to have me arressted for theft, all of the other partners kept me on payroll pending the sale when I will be "hired" by the new owner. I don't know if the sale is going to go through because of this shitbird, i may be out of a job there anyway. Anyway I got my check on Friday and it wasn't signed, so through an intermediary I arranged to have him sign it. He snatched it. Probably spent by now. Urrgh, just what I need with the wife in rehab and not getting paid for the next 4 plus weeks. On the other hand, the other company I represent just was awarded, solely through my expertise and experience, the project from hell which is incredibly stressful but also very lucrative. Big problem, this deal has been in the works since long before my wife went away, they start before they come back and I won't be available to them peak times due to my child care situation. Might I have to kiss that money goodbye as well? Urrgh again. Then I had to call my parents and tell them the whole situation with the wife going away, which is not an easy call to make as I'm sure some of you can imagine. Then of course I have work to do because I'm spending so much time away from the offices, and the kids don't get that, they want ice cream, gummy bears, M&M's etc. ALL EXACTLY 5 MINUTES APART! I just sit down and another kid is coming up to me asking for something else. By the time the third one is done with the first one is coming back for more. I explain that I need to get work done, but hey, Moms away, it's party time!

The difficult thing about the day was hasn't been not being able to have a drink, although at times it would have been nice to have that option. But I don't have that option, so it was simply a stressful day. Nobody ever told me that there wouldn't be stressful days when I am more comfortable with my sobriety, right? If I'm mistaken on that, please let me know right away. In fact, if I could drink right now I'm not so sure I would be all that pleasant of a guy to share a drink with. So, I'm grumpy but am also very glad that even in the 2nd day sober that I realize it's not because I can't drink. I'm grumpy because I'm grumpy. And I don't think there's a 12 step program for grumpiness right? If so, again please let me know right away.

Thanks for the vent!