There is no shame in going to an AA meeting after a relapse. I go to two meetings a week. One is a Swedish group and the other one is an International group that is English speaking. The night I was feeling pretty down about my relapse it just turned out that a guy with 8 years of sobriety showed up in the middle of a bender. he was drinking for four months.
His share was really powerful because he was really hurting.
I don't know how AA is going to work for me, but I am going to keep giving it a try. I can't quit. I don't have any issues with a higher power and frankly, after a year of going to AA meets, I have not had a single person push religion on me.
That is really a myth that you are supposed to become religious. What it has meant for me instead, is that it is a place where I can finally pick up the pieces of my life.