Day One Again
I'm with you, hopingtohope. It is so scary knowing that if you don't quit a behavior that it may kill you, wondering if you have the will to do it. I feel so ashamed of myself it is unreal---ashamed that I know nothing will change unless I make an effort every day.
One day at a time. That really is all of it. One foot in front of the other and don't drink in between.