So much that I want to say right now, but I'm not capable of making you feel better right now. You've been through SO much and deserve SO much better. I've read your posts, know what I want to say, but I don't have the words right now but to say that .... this isn't fair... you deserve more... your kids deserve more... he'll get what's coming...You've given so much to so many of us. God doesn't let us down like this - hang tight - He won't fail you. I'll have a better head about me tomorrow, but I KNOW you've fought the fight and I know your HP won't fail you right now. Hugs to you NP - so sorry you feel this stress and turmoil.