Its starting to sink in....
I feel like I have finally begun to understand why I have just fallen apart emotionally. It is really starting to sink in that there is nothing I can do for my addict.
It is so very painful to know that I have been in such a state the last few months that it clouded my judgement. Everything I thought I understood I really had no clue at all.
Its hard to admit that you are wrong. Its hard to admit that you are powerless.
It dawned on me today that I really truly am dealing with a person who was sick in the head and yet I am expecting him to respond to me "normally".
Its hard to choke down. The lump that is stuck in my throat just wont go away. Its hard not to get through a day where that lump isnt there.
Just wanted to post this. No one else seems to understand like the people here......