Hi there...
Hey... rather than think of the negative of last night... you may not have gone in (done that myself)... but you went.... you attempted to go in.... that shows willing and guts in my opinion....
Todays a new day... so try and get in the door.... as Horselover said... we all have the fear of the unknown... and its that fear that our addictions use to keep their old on us... and when we face our fears its generally not quite as bad as we thought it would be....
I get petrified at each meeting... i still go cos i am not going to let my fear control me... i control me.... do you want to control you?
Try it.... what you got to lose
Nice to have you here... and congrats on trying to get control of your life... big step
be well
louis