Hey Frstmn, Thanks for your input - I was to a certain extent thinking along the lines of what you are saying. These women by no means have been unhelpful - they have all said go to them for advice whenever I need it. I feel like going to each of them when I get an issue with the steps and if two of them are saying the same - then take that as sound advice.
Its all so confusing but then I think my brain maybe possibly still be in shock of being able to admit I am an alcoholic at last. What I am finding difficult though is that I can admit it but I am not sure that I am accepting it. I am not sure if admitting and accepting are the same things.
Powerless over people places and things in also an interesting concept.